Feline Dreams

Sunday, May 25, 2008

I'm back! Reached home on Friday morning after a very long and uncomfortable flight. Will be back at work on Monday and back onsite on Tuesday.

First off, thank you for all the messages and tags guys, they're much appreciated. I went to a family function today, and met an aunt who asked me how I'm coping. And I guess the answer is : I'm not really coping.

Ever since that Tuesday, I've refused to think about it, and I've surrounded myself with my friends and always, always tried to keep my mind occupied. The thought creep up just before I go to bed each night sometimes though, and when I'm sitting down doing nothing for a couple of hours, like when I'm watching a film, but for the most part, I'm doing well at keeping them at bay. I thought that coming home would make it all better, more real in a sense, but it hasn't. It doesn't feel like my grandmother's gone for good, it literally feels like she's just gone away for a little while, and that she'll be back again.

I think the other members of my family have had time to accept the fact, grieve and begin to move on, but I kinda haven't. I've not had a proper cry, I've not spoken to people about my feelings because I've been trying to keep them away myself, and I've definitely not begun to move on.

I doubt I'm going about it the right way, denial's hardly the best course of action, but I'm not entirely sure what else to do.

~MockingBird~ { 11:50 } 1 comments

Hi F, belated condolences on your grandmother's passing. I know exactly how you feel. My grandma passed away almost 3 years ago and I still miss her terribly. The feeling never really goes away, but it does get easier with time *hugs*

In any case, happy birthday and hope you're feeling a bit better.

Di @ 10:24 AM

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

I was at uni picking up my graduation tickets when I got a call from my mom informing me that my grandmother passed away 7pm Brunei time. I'm numb. I don't know what to feel. They told me to just stay over and not come home because by the time I get home, my grandmother would have been buried anyways. I wish I could have seen her one last time. I'm glad my parents are in Brunei though.

I'm feeling very lonely here at the moment.

~MockingBird~ { 18:34 } 3 comments

Innalillahi wainnaillahi rajiuun.

Big, tight hugs from Bandar. Chin up, babe. And banyakkan doa.

Tina @ 2:55 PM

innalillahi wainnaillahi rajiuun..

fina, i'm so sorry to hear that :( my condolences to you and your family... i'm so so sorry... :(

shasha @ 9:22 AM

Innalilah.

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandma. *big hugs*

Nana @ 11:06 AM

Thursday, May 01, 2008

1st of May today! Congratulations N, A, S , C (ok few more days for you missy) and me for making it to the 6 month mark at work yay! Proper holidays here we come :)

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

~MockingBird~ { 13:41 } 0 comments

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