Sunday, February 27, 2005

Sucks to be on the rag. Been having munchies, and getting very very worked up over stuff today. In particular certain people. Who are being (whether intentionally or not) rude, and kinda hurtful. And I just don't understand why. I hate the situation so much.


Need.More.Chocolate xoxo

So, paintball yesterday. Had a very very early start, we left the house at 530 am(!!!) and got to the National Paintball Fields in Birmingham at about 915 am...Got there, got all kitted out and thus began our day of rolling around in mud, creeping through the woods, trying to see out of steamed up goggles and shooting at people we hoped were not our team-mates!

All in all, I had a great time, and I think (hope?) the others did as well...We played a total of 8 games, I think, and unlike last year, where I stayed mostly at the back, doing defending, this year, I got kinda braver and tried to be more pro-active haha... Of course, this got me shot at more often than not, but I had so much fun, I didn't mind. My favourite game was when me, A, T and N sneaked through trenches on the side and completely took the other team by surprise! It was soo much fun, I felt like a proper soldier haha...Also, being captain, I got to use a special Angel marker, which was super cool! =D Very heavy though and kinda temperamental at times, but I still liked it =D

The ground was really really muddy though, and I always seemed to pick out bunkers where the ground was the muddiest! After I took off my coveralls, even my trousers were soaked through with mud..Ick ick ick =/ And me, being me, forgot to bring a change of clothes =P Thank god Anne had a pair to spare heheh =P My hiking boots are absolutely covered with it as well, I'm glad I wore them instead of my Puma trainers, they'd have been ruined =P But seriously though, I looked such a state yesterday, manky, muddy clothes, hair all over my face, etc etc.. Haha... Sorry D, I know you said I should always look my best, but I just couldn't help it yesterday haha =)

I'm paying the price for ye sterday's activities now though. I'm hurting like hell, and my whole body aches, I'm walking around very very slowly, and the bruises are not pretty. Well proud of them though, they're my battle scars heheh...Even my head hurts, courtesy of those bloody head shots I got yesterday! Head shots don't count as kill shots but they still hurt like hell. Everytime I got shot, I'd start swearing like a sailor haha...

Spent the morning on the couch, partly cause I couldn't be bothered to start any work yet, and also because I couldn't actually work up the energy to move upstairs =P Watched the first few episodes of 24 and I'm getting well into it! I think I'm gonna get the next 2 seasons on dvd pretty soon =D

Tagger Replies:

Ena: You wouldnt happen to be a Richard Gere fan now would you...? Haha... I think I'm developing a crush on Keifer Sutherland now though, Jack Bauer MmmMMm haha...

Nynx: I've stolen my friend's extra pair of gloves and I never leave the house without them haha...

Princess GP: My dreams are *always* dry!!!! *blush* =P

SevenStars: Eksen lagi tuuuu, bet you watch Strictly Come Dancing with a passion! ;o)

MissTress: Am alright, hun, how're you doin? Saw your guy yesterday heheh ;o)

Am off to get some work done now, this is me, signing out! xoxo

p/s: Thanks to everyone who helped me with sorting out paintball details, you know who you guys are! *hugs* Also, to her, for the delish food... My compliments to the chef babe! ;o)

GooooooOOo LEeEeeEEdDDss!!! ;o)

Wednesday, February 23, 2005

Selamat Menyambut Hari Kebangsaan ke-21 Brunei!!

..Ok, so this post was a bit late in Brunei time, but its only 923 am here so I'm still well within National Day time *innocent* ;o) What's been going on in Brunei to celebrate National Day, people? One thing I miss about being back home is all these celebrations, nothing like that ever happens here, with the national-scale celebrations and all...

It's still snowing!! I'm planning to go into town later today to get some paintball stuff, but this weather is just putting me off! =P Since when is it this cold in February? Planning a quiet day today, do some work, go into town, and then aerobics and/or gym...Heheh I'm motivated to do more exercise now, a couple of my friends told me last night I lost weight!! *glows* Haha dunno if they were just being nice, but I'm *loving* that compliment! =D

Last night was pretty good...was meant to have gone out with some people but a lot of them couldn't make it. Was kinda disappointed, and I guess one of the guys, R, sensed this and he was *such* a schweetie! He made such an effort to make me feel better, up to the point where he actually came over just to watch the Liverpool-Leverkusen match at my place =) Anne cooked a gorgeous dinner as well, bless her =) I got back from dance at about 730 (got walked back btw, courtesy of J haha) and stayed in the lounge til 11, at which point we all looked at each other and decided we were too tired, and went straight off to bed! Haha... sad isn't it =P Explains why I'm up so bright and early on a day off from uni heheh...

Will attempt to do *some* work now, the snow's stopped and it looks to be a very bright and sunny (but freezing cold!) day. Loving this weather =) Oh btw, I'm loving Cadbury's finger chocolates thingy, soooo nice, I could finish a whole pack off by myselves! =D

Ciao bellas! xoxo

Tagger/Comment replies :

Ena : I knowwwwww...He's got such a cheeky smile!! Heheh... I've never watched *any* of his movies before, but I was recommended Officer and a Gentleman...Anything else?

SevenStars : Heheh thanks babe, will look into it when I get back =) You wanna dance with me? ;o)

Aangil : I haven't seen any of Richard Gere's other movies, but I'll be sure to check them out now. And yeah, I agree, he *is* a good actor..Plus those dance sequences were fantastic! =D Thanks for visiting my site btw =)

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

....Hallelujah!! Haha I wish =P The snowing men part that is, it really *is* snowing here (just your average white and wet snowflakes though, not gorgeous men =P), been snowing quite heavily in the past 2 days. The snow sure took its time to get here, I expected it a coupla months ago, not now when it's almost springtime! The snow makes everything so pretty and Christmassy =)

So anyways, short summary of what I've been up to :

Watched Shall We Dance on Saturday night and I *loved* the movie! Love it love it love it! =D Don't know if that's maybe due to the fact that I'm kinda biased, seeing as how I dance as well, but it was just a schweet film =) I never noticed how cute Richard Gere was til that night...Anyways, girls, watch it with your best girlfriends, the men might not enjoy it too much, its a bit of a romatic, fluffy movie that most girls love... I have now decided that I wanna find my perfect dance partner, and when I do find him, I'm going to marry him!! Preferably someone tall, dark and handsome...Haha... Wishful thinking, much? =P

Sunday was cool as well, lazed about for a bit, then went to Samba class with my friends (check me out, prasan kan try all the dances haha) and it was SO hard!! Seriously, the teacher's hips were like a separate entity from the rest of her, they moved so fast! Then explored the city after class and found an honest-to-goodness Malaysian restaurant =D A *very* posh and expensive Malaysian restaurant, but it's got Nasi Ayam Hainanese, Satay Ayam and Ais Kacang!! *drools* Will definitely check the place out when I've got the moolah...

Went out last night to celebrate S's birthday. She'll be my housemate next year, and it was just a fun night out. Wasn't so fun walking in heels on the snow-y and icy ground though, I've lost count of the number of times I slipped and almost fell last night =P Halo's a good club, they play great music and they have dancers dancing behind a screen, so all you see is their silhouette. Very cool...For some reason, everyone was uber clumsy last night! N, another future housemate, slipped and fell on her head on her way to meet us. Then later that night, as we were leaving a pub, S(current housemate) slipped down the steps and scraped her knee pretty bad. A hit her head on a cabinet this morning, *I* fell down the bloody stairs in my house last night (fell on my ass though, so didn't hurt that much, lots of padding you see =P) and T had a cut on his foot. Speaking of T, he came home soo hammered last night. I've never actually seen someone so drunk that they had to hug the toilet seat trying to throw up, thought that only happened in movies haha.. At one point, me and Anne had to use the toilet, and T refused to leave the toilet bowl, so we managed to work out a compromise that involved us 3 being in the toilet at the same time and we all managed to do what we had to do lol! That's all I'm saying about it, but it was a very, shall we say, interesting, experience? ;o) Ooh ooh also, I went to the gym for the first time *ever* yesterday! Not too sure if I like working out in the gym, I prefer doing classes like aerobics and Boxercise..but guess I'll stick to it lah.. Man, the price to pay for trying to get fit =P

/start rant I've been trying to sort out a certain event that's taking place this weekend for about a month now, and recently people keep dropping out. This isn't aimed at those with valid excuses by the way, but some others...I mean, its 3 days to the event and some people have just dropped out today! Some of them with no reason at all..And I just think, well, these people have had enough notice from me about the events and all, so why not schedule stuff or prepare for it since the month before?? I mean, I've got a really big dance comp this weekend too, but I'm not going cause of this other event! Is it too much to ask that people just...be more committed? I'm just really fed-up, I swear the next person that drops out, I'll.... *censor beep* (I've got more on my mind, but I can't be bothered to type them out =/)/end rant

Off to dance now! xoxo

Insom: Loved the movie!! Heheh.. You seen it yet? I was wondering whether it would make more people interested in joining ballroom dancing... By the way, is there any ballroom classes in Brunei at the mo'? Does anyone know?

Monday, February 21, 2005

Just found out that my lecture and practical at 2-5 later's been cancelled due to staff illness!! We were meant to have an assessed prac today but it's been postponed to next week yayy!! =D Not that I'm happy cause my lecturer's ill, but I hadn't actually studied for my practical today so *whew*

Will update you guys on my weekend in the next post! ;o)

xoxo

Saturday, February 19, 2005

Happy weekend everyone!! =D

This is the first weekend in a while where I can actually stay home and vegetate, and I'm taking full advantage of it! =) Am alone at home actually, the others're out in town, but I couldn't be bothered to go. Plus, since I can't shop, it'd just physically pain me to see all the stuff I can't buy anyways =P

Went to a salsa club on Thursday. Well I say club, cause Hide, my dance partner told me it was a club. So me and M went and dressed accordingly, you know, flare-y skirt, and nice top, and in M's case, a pretty dress. Then met up with the guys, and they were dressed realllly casually! I found out why when we got to the bar and I heard someone on the mike going "Right ladiess, 5, 6, 7, 8 anddddd turn!!" It was a bloody salsa class!! And there we were, all glammed up! *shy* I was sooo embarassed I refused to take my blazer off the whole night =P It was good fun though, might consider doing it again...The other people there that night were sooo good though, just swaying and moving all over the place! Couldn't keep up with them haha...

Yesterday was uneventful, went to Boxercise again, and I think I *might* be developing some biceps!! *iski* Haha... I'm on a real health kick now, am gonna start going to the gym every other day starting next week! I'll stop eating chocolates and other junk food too! *looks at Snickers bar she's been demolishing* ..Next week lah I start ;o)

Anyways, just a short, boring post today, am gonna get ready now, planning to watch Shall We Dance later tonight with J =)

Ciao Bellas! xoxo

Oh yeah, Nynx : The shoes don't count, Daddy bought them for me. Though he isn't aware of that fact yet lol!

Thursday, February 17, 2005

The fact that I got up at 9 am, without the aid of an alarm clock yesterday isn't the crazy part. Oh no, it's the fact that I got up at 9 on my sole day off from uni, and then decided to trek to the sports hall to play a bit of badminton is the crazy bit! Me, exercising? Guess pigs're flying now ;o) And then after badminton, went home, changed and went back out to town, to send some stuff off. after that, voluntarily went to a non-compulsory lecture at 5!! What in the world's up with that?? Heheh...Pretty pleased with myself though, least I made something of the day rather than just wasting it. Now if I could only motivate myself to sit down and get some work done, life'd be great! =P

Had my Greek tutorial today, and we've all been divided into 3 groups, each group assigned a different mapping area in Greece. My tutor took into account my special request of "No mountains, please!!" and placed me in a coastal area...My tutor, Richard, was like "Right Fina, no mountains, but you need to get to the gym and get fit!" I was like *blush* =P I'm not too happy with some of the people in my group, would honestly prefer to be with some others that I've worked with before and know that we can get along... but hopefully we'll be able to work well together *fingers crossed*

Got dance shoes today!! Proper ones, like the ones advanced dancers wear =D They're SO comfy, its padded both at the sole and the bottom, I now understand how the other girls can dance for hours on end without any pain! =P

The house's been different lately, it's not like a huge difference, but I just feel we're not really hanging out as much as we used to...3 of my housemates've been super-busy with their work recently, and to be fair, I'd be that busy too if I actually bothered with my work =P As A puts it, we're not as "harmonious" as we used to be...Hopefully this'll change soon, yes? =( She's been really quiet and un-hyper recently, hope you feel better soon babe, I miss the old you!! =(

Tagger replies:

Johnny B : I can *SO* skate!! =P With the help of certain someones, I admit, but still better than previous times =P

Ena : Heheh we have more than 1 toilet lahhh.. It'd be a major nightmare kalau satu saja =S And I'm hoping for the best for this house, can you imagine the bitchi-ness once us 7 starts to be in sync with our monthly cycles?? *shudders*

Nol : Thanks for visiting babe!! Course I still remember you silly! Bila naik Leeds? ;o)

s99 : Am very very scared of falling too, but it helps if you go with friends who can skate (and can pull you around the rink!) Not that I was pulled along lah, I skated, obviously ;o)

Monday, February 14, 2005

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!! <3 <3 How's everyone celebrating this year then? Anything special? Or are y'all just choosing to igore this day and treat it as yet another over commercialised day? As for myself, it was just another day for me, nothing special happened at all. Card pun nada =( Haha... I know we're not supposed to be celebrating it and all, but sometimes when you look at all the loved up couples, you can't help but want to be part of that once in a while. Plus, yet another excuse to get more pressies! =D Saw J on my way to lectures this morning, he said hey and kinda ran his hand thru my hair. Not a bad thing in itself, except that my hair had been rained on the day before and was super greasy!! Haha... bet he regretted doing that =/

Been having a really busy week. Finally found (and paid for) a house all 7 of us girls like!! It's a bit further off from uni than I would've liked, but it *is* a really nice place. It's about 30 min walk to uni, or 15-20 by bus. Best place? It's right behind Starbucks! Haha.. you guys can guess where I'll be spending most of *my* time and money next year ;o) Paid my 200 pound deposit on Friday, so I am now well and truly broke =P

Weekend was good, friends from Manchester came up for the weekend and it was just cool to be catching up (bitching/gossiping/chilling) with them again. Next time we'll repay the favour with a visit to Manchester, yes guys? ;o) Oh oh oh I went skating again this weekend and I can skate now!! I really really can =D Ask T and Anne, they'll tell you =D Heheh.. proud much? =P Also went to Sheffield on Saturday, for a dance social competition. As far as comps went, this one went alright I guess, nothing spectacular. Although at one point, it was just me and my partner representing Leeds on the floor, dancing against a couple from Liverpool, with like 10 universities watching us. Scary!! =P

Replies to taggers:

T and Princess GP : You guys smell like poooooo!! You reallllly doooooooo!! But I still love youuuuu!! Even though you smell like poooo!! *muahz*

Ena : Why d'you need happy pills, hun? Y'alright? Thanks for the support tho *hugz*

Nynx : Chocolates *always* help heheh...Thanks for everything, feeling better now =)

Insom : Ehhhh orang baru engaged ah, online tia juaaaa heheh... Didn't do anything with J, he didn't ask me =( Ah well, his loss =D

Tuesday, February 08, 2005

Have an hour's break til my dance class, so I'm killing time in the uni's computer cluster. Got (some of) my results today. They were... interesting. One paper I thought I'd be alright in I completely fcuked up, but the other 2 was alright.. Actually one of them was more than alright, I had to check the board over and over to make sure I didn't read the wrong marks out =D My last grade'll be released on Friday, I'm not hoping much for this one, but am hoping that I can maintain my average *hopes and prays* =)

Recently been feeling a bit... weird. Like I'm left out of the loop for something. You know how it is when you get the feeling that everyone around you knows something that you don't? Yeah, been getting that kinda vibe recently and it's not really a pleasant feeling =( I also sometimes get the feeling that people around me are actually quite annoyed by me and they only tolerate me and pretend to like me cause they have to. It gets me thinking that I may not have as many friends as I think I do, that it's just a facade that I've been living in for the past months. I don't really know where these feelings/paranoia are coming from, or even if there's any truth in them, but I wish they'd get out of my head cause they're just making me depressed and out of sorts.
=( Maybe I should be prescribed some happy pills or something...? Anyone..?

It's pancake day today and the start of Lent tomorrow. Everyone's coming over to have pancakes at my place, but I can't make it cause Ive got dance til 730, then a social at 9... Bad timing much? =P Now am thinking of not going to the social, and just staying home, holed up in my room. I really really need to snap out of this funk.

SO, what are you giving up for Lent?

Oh yeah, to my Chinese readers : Gong Xi Fa Cai!!! =D

xoxo

Sunday, February 06, 2005

Heys all. God, am getting very lax about updating this place aren't I... Heheh... guess the novelty of having a blog's worn off...Plus there hasn't been much going on in my life recently. Been having an alright weekend, results didn't get released on Friday, which was not cool, cause I wanted to have the weekend the recover from the shock haha... It's a bit crappy to release results at the start of the week, it just ruins the whole week doesn't it =P

Soooo what've I been up to... More house-hunting.. I've seen about 10 houses now, and I just cannot be bothered to do more. It's hard to find a house that all 7 girls will agree with. Here's hoping this will all be sorted soon =P Good thing about that is that I haven't had to pay my deposit yet, thank god =P I've been ill since Wednesday; got a mumps vaccination shot cause the mumps' been making the rounds around Leeds, and promptly fell ill =P Still a bit sniffly and coughy now, but wasn't as bad as Thursday and Friday when I felt absolutely crap. Friday I *finally* made it to Boxercise, and omg the lady worked us like a fiend! She made the class run laps and make us drop and do a pushup every half a minute or so!. Now the thing about me right, I'm not exactly the fittest of people, and I can't do a pushup to save my life!! I can barely manage one, atupun not a proper one haha =P Oh yes, another "highlight" of my Boxercise class was when I got punched in the nose by TAD! Well, indirectly by her anyways haha.. her fist didn't exactly hit me, but still.. *ouch* my first thought was "omg is my nose broken??? biut kah??" =P hahah vain-ness I know =D

Yesterday went into town to look for a cowgirl outfit =D There's a dancesport social this Tuesday, with a cowboys and indians theme and I've decided to go as a cowgirl! Maybe I'll be able to lasso myself a cutie for the night haha =P Later that night went out for drinks and a movie with J. Haha.. yeah went out with him again, but I dunno ah.. I'm very very confused by him. /edit Don't think we're as compatible as I used to think (hope?) we were =P Looong story haha =P

Anyways need to start studying, another test tomorrow =( xoxo

But before that:

Dreamer, SevenStars, Chris, Lish, Insomniac, Nynx, Ena - Thanks for the support and advice ladies and gent, very much appreciated.. I feel better now, I was probably letting the stress get on top of me too much...*hugs everyone* =)

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

I'm stressed/unhappy/in a mood. For a variety of reasons:

1. Results're out on Friday and I'm not looking forward to it

2. It's just week 2 on my term and I feel left behind and slow.I've got a test and assignment this week and more to look forward to in the coming weeks.

3. J's giving me mixed signals and I'm confused. Didn't hear from him since Thursday, saw him yesterday and he made a point to come over and speak to me. Texted him last night but no reply til today. Now what's up with that?

4. Biggest stress factor: My finances are getting on top of me. I literally am almost broke. I just don't know where the money's all gone, seriously. I've looked at my balance and it seems to be all the little things, like 10 pounds here, 5 there, etc. Rent came out yesterday, and I've got a bunch of bills to pay and I'm gonna have to cough up 300 for my house deposit by this weekend.Plus I need money for my Greece summer project. Looks like I'm gonna be funding it myself for the time being and thats at least 1000 pounds. I don't wanna ask for money from the parentals cause it isn't fair. Me being here should be me being out of their hair and being able to sort my finances out myself. Doesn't seem to be working and I'm not very happy with myself for not being able to do so.

I might hibernate for a long long while and come out when everything seems hunky dory again =(

xoxo